The year is nearly over! I haven’t written a year in review post yet and it’s 4:30pm on New Year’s Eve! I’m really living life on the edge here.
This year has been kind of tough, but also exciting. I’ve had some rough mental health patches and I’ve really been feeling the pressure from school. To be honest, I would say the main theme of the last year year has been academic work. A-Levels have been taking up more and more time, and this year I’ve gotten a lot more into academia through thinking about what I want to do with my future. I’m sad that some things have had to suffer for this — like, for example, this blog, let’s not lie — but education is very important to me and I don’t regret it. I just hope that in the future I’ll be able to balance both school and life.
Let’s do a bullet-pointed list for the year, shall we? I henceforth also refer to my 2019 goals.
Looking back at 2019
- I turned 18!
- I played D&D!
- I fulfilled my goal of continuing to do theatre tech — I visited Edinburgh for the first time and worked on a show at the Fringe, as well as helping with my school play.
- I started driving lessons, although I’m not very good.
- I voted for the first time.
- I saw Lauren Aquilina, one of my favourite artists, in concert for the first time.
- I met some wonderful blogging friends! Shout-out to Em and Elly!
- I didn’t blog once a month, as I’ve already touched on, but I’m okay with that.
- I actually have prepared for my future. I’ve submitted by uni application and hopefully I’ll be studying classics this time next year. I’m super excited!!
- I mean… I’m not sure if I fulfilled my goal of taking care of myself. I’ve tried but also sometimes you just feel not great and there’s no getting around that. I think that next year I should learn how to ask for help sooner rather than literally at the point of crisis.
- Eh…I didn’t really spend less time on social media, oops.
- I’ve come out to more people but I’m pretty sure they’ve all forgotten because people just revert to calling me a girl and I never correct them because I hate confrontation, so.
- I think I did get into some new music this year! Go me!
Looking ahead to 2020
- I want to complete my A-Levels and get a place at university.
- I want to play more D&D and board games with my friends.
- Maybe stop just browsing Youtube all the time, lol.
- I’d like to keep up my clarinet and actually enjoy it rather than making it a chore.
- I want to continue eating less meat — I’ve definitely cut down on this (I have done so mainly for environmental reasons) so I’m just keen to keep that going.
Not gonna lie, I probably had some more goals but I am tired and I have a head-ache right now! I guess I can update you later or something. I have also used so many exclamation marks in this post. Happy new year, friends!
Image description: The text ‘2018 year in review’ over a firework.
We’ve almost made it through 2018! Hurrah! Let’s DO THIS THING. This year feels like it’s been one of the longest years of my life. The other day I genuinely thought that something I did over summer happened in February, so I guess it’s like 2 years have passed instead of 1? Like, what even. Anyway, I’m here with a good old yearly recap post, because I do like to be able to have this as a point of reference and it’s fun to see everything I’ve done over this year. (If I can even remember them.)
Looking back at 2018
- Firstly, let’s recap my 2018 goals. Doing things with love? I mean, KIND OF. I do think that I’ve spent more time on friendships and on making new friends which is great! And I’ve also met some wonderful internet friends in real life! (This ties in with my other goal about meeting friends.) I’m getting better at looking critically at the things I love but I definitely have a long way to go with that process.
- Caring for myself… Well, GCSEs sucked a LOT, I have to say. That whole experience and the culture of public examinations is still negatively affecting my mental health now. The first half of the year was really difficult for that reason and I haven’t always been amazing at taking care of myself, but part of that includes letting myself off for that, too? I’ve literally tried to block out all of that because it was just grim, tbh.
- However, I can say with certainty that I have enjoyed so much amazing art this year! From excellent books to theatre to new TV shows I’ve started… it’s been a great one. A big part of this has been helping out with the sixth form musical at my school, where I worked as the sound operator. I was so proud of that production, and although it was stressful, I had an amazing time and I know that it’ll stay with me forever.
- I have also for sure experienced new things: I got my first job! I travelled to South America with Guides! I went to prom! I did make it through my first public exams! I started sixth form! I got my nose pierced! I DMed for the first time!
- I want to expand on starting sixth form because Year 12 has been FULL. ON. I’m studying Maths, Spanish, History & Latin and I’m really glad that I picked those subjects. (Especially Latin because I’m maybe enjoying it the most and it was a last minute switch from Chemistry.)
- I blogged much less in the second half of this year. My stats are NOT thanking me, lol, but sometimes that’s the way life goes. I do have a whole bunch of post ideas so I REALLY hope I can get some more posts up.
- One thing that I actually was good at keeping up was my bullet journal. I’m so glad I put in pictures of what I was up to from throughout the year because it was really nice to remind me when I looked through.
- Also, I took my last ever clarinet exam which was kind of trash but THANK GOD IT’S OVER. Now I just have to spend another 6 months re-learning to love the clarinet after that deeply stressful experience, I guess.
Looking ahead to 2019
- I’m going to turn 18!! WHAT! I’m just going to make that its own bullet point in itself because I don’t feel like I’m ready to be a legal adult at all.
- I want to do some preparation for my future: learning to drive, improving at cooking, maybe applying for uni/deciding what I’m going to do keeping on with my job.
- More blogging! I miss it a lot! I’d like to blog at least once a month.
- In addition to blogging, I want to continue with theatre tech, because that was really fun and fulfilling this year. In summer I’m going to be helping on a production at the Edinburgh Fringe which I’m super excited about! I hope to make the most of that experience!
- Again, I want to better take care of myself. Some concrete ways I’m going to do this are making sure I exercise, getting back into meditation, keeping a regular sleeping schedule and allowing myself to sometimes just hand in work that’s good enough, if not perfect.
- I want to use my time on the internet and my phone in better ways. Spending a lot of time mindlessly scrolling social media has been REALLY bad for my brain. Instead, I want to spend more time interacting with people and building relationships.
- I would like to come out as non-binary to more people? Maybe? And also to just tell people when they misgender me because people still do that a lot but I feel awkward correcting them (even though it’s not my mistake). Also, to just not read the transphobic articles that cross my path because they do not exactly help.
- I’d like to listen to more new music, since I love finding new bops and I didn’t get that much opportunity to do so in 2018.
I’ll probably think of something really good after I’ve posted this but, ah well. That’s how it goes. I hope you enjoyed this focus on my personal goals.
how was your 2018? do you have any goals or resolutions for 2019?