Welcome again to Monthly Mixtape, a music feature created by me, Eve @ Twist in the Taile, and Evi @ Adventuring Through Pages. Here’s how it works: each month, we give you a one-word prompt, and you make a playlist. We welcome you to interpret the prompt however you want and with whatever music you’re into.
Please link back to the original Monthly Mixtape prompt whenever you make a playlist. We welcome you to use the title image for your blog post if you wish. You can create a playlist in response to any of the previous prompts as well if you like. The next Monthly Mixtape will hopefully be up in the first week of March! And this month’s prompt is…
OK, my playlist this month has kind of a strange energy but I love it a LOT. I started off basically picking songs with harmonies that I’m obsessed with and it grew from there. Like there are just certain bits in a song where I listen over and over because it’s SO GOOD. The first time I fully listened to The World’s Best Kisser and it got to the section with the drums it was Woah. It was very difficult for me to find an album picture to represent the specific feeling of listening to a great harmony haha.
the world’s best kisser – darwin deez
on a level – tove lo
killer queen – queen
good friend – emily king
when the chips are down – original cast of hadestown
hot knife – fiona apple
human – dodie
making time – georgie west
I’m really loving some new discoveries Emily King & Hadestown — the album that the song When the Chips are Down is from which is a folk-jazz musical about Orpheus & Eurydice. I KNOW. SAME — in addition to my wonderful friend Georgie West’s new album. It’s such a BOP, guys.
I look forward to listening to more of your wonderful playlists! Thanks Miriam @ Shadowriverdaleharley for the great playlist in response to our last prompt Beginning. 🙂 Enjoy!
I say ‘January favourites’, but really I mean ‘favourites over the winter period up till now’ because I haven’t done a recap in ages and also I have no concept of time so can’t remember when exactly I did stuff. It’s all good!
Spiderman: Into the Spiderverse I am late to the party on yelling about this movie online but please know that it was SO GOOD and I enjoyed it SO MUCH. I just adore all the Spiderpeople. Although I love a number of superhero characters, most superhero movies (except for the more recent Black Panther & Spiderman: Homecoming) are somewhat likeable but still kind of…meh for me. I guess I’m just not that really into blowing things up? Spiderverse represented exactly the kind of joy, excitement & wonder that I want to feel when I’m watching a superhero movie. I can’t wait to watch it again.
Foreign Objects by Georgie West I have been extremely blessed by music this month, oh my goodness! This album is so gorgeous and brings so many different things — soft guitars! great lyrics! surprising harmonies! straight up tunes! beats! — whilst still being cohesive. You should definitely check it out ASAP,
Human EP by Dodie I love all of the songs on this EP so much!! Aah! I especially loved getting to hear a produced version of She after all this time. :’)
The Inheritance I saw this play at the start of this month and it was a real Experience. Despite its length it was, somehow, extremely watchable, perhaps due to the excellent acting. As time goes on I’m beginning to feel as though I perhaps liked it more for that experience than for the play itself? It was just so good to be present in an audience of many other LGBTQ+ people, immersed in a queer story. But it wasn’t perfect play, and I was frustrated by the way it presented a very particular white male cis experience of being gay as The Definitive Queer Experience. I’m glad I went, though.
Catullus I…am into poetry again? It’s so nice to be back? I got out a book of Catullus from the library with parallel texts (is that how I say it? where it has translation on one side and the original Latin besides) and it was GOOD. Even if I was confused by some of the translation choices.
BBC Les Mis Okay, I’m probably going to have to write a whole post on this one because I have some…Opinions… But honestly I’m overall enjoying it. I see many people in the online fandom getting angry about it and I totally get that, but I like watching the show despite its issues.
Company I was lucky enough to see a few excellent shows this holiday, one of which was the Sondheim musical Company. This version was reimagined to see the wonderful Rosalie Craig playing Bobbie in the main role. I hadn’t actually listened to Company before seeing this so it was wonderful to go in and be like…OH this is so good and it’s going to be a new obsession. Also the production was really nice!! What good lighting!
It was so great to do a recap post again! Somehow I’ve managed to find the time among the swathes of schoolwork that I am once again consumed by. Over the holidays I seemed to have forgotten how much it really was. Coming up on the blog this month I have the next edition of Monthly Mixtape and a GCSE music revision tips post so look out for those! 🙂
have you watched/read/listened to any of these? how was your january? are you looking forward to anything next month?
Monthly Mixtape is back! We took a little break from Monthly Mixtape but we are BACK and READY with a rebrand. If this is your first time here, Monthly Mixtape is a music feature created by me, Eve @ Twist in the Taile, and Evi @ Adventuring Through Pages. Here’s how it works: each month, we give you a one-word prompt, and you make a playlist. We welcome you to interpret the prompt however you want and with whatever music you’re into.
This time around we’re going to be trying a new style of prompt! Instead of giving a definition this time we picked a broader theme (because you know, new year and all, I do like a bit of renewal). Please do let us know what you think of it 🙂
Please link back to the original Monthly Mixtape prompt whenever you make a playlist. We welcome you to use the title image for your blog post if you wish. You can create a playlist in response to any of the previous prompts as well if you like. The next Monthly Mixtape will hopefully be up in the first week of February! And this month’s prompt is…
I had a lot of fun making this playlist! I kind of decided to go for a bit of reflection by picking songs about the past and also songs that I listened to obsessively some time ago. Is it a law that I am drawn to include a Mitski and Ted Leo song for every playlist I make? I guess so. There’s something in there about using the past to make a new beginning… But anyway. I hope you enjoy.
this year – the mountain goats
someone new – darwin deez
if i’m being honest – dodie
every time i hear that song – brandi carlile
old friend – mitski
plea from a cat named virtute – the weakerthans
new year’s day – u2
biomusicology – ted leo and the pharmacists
I’m looking forward to listening to more of your wonderful playlists! And if you fancy sharing any music recommendations or what you’ve been listening to lately, I’d love to hear it. (I’m not gonna lie, I’m still obsessed with Thank U, Next; I’m sure it’ll be coming to a Monthly Mixtape soon haha.)
Can I let you in on secret? I first wrote ‘2017’ instead of 2018 when drafting this post. I think that gives you a good idea of what’s going on with my brain haha. You can also check out my 2017 and 2016 in books if you are so inclined.
So this year I read exactly 100 books, meeting my Goodreads reading challenge. This is a bit less than other years, and I think that’s a combination of a) not reading as much due to being more busy and b) reading denser books that take a longer time to read. It also does include a lot of comics, perhaps contributing to the fact that I’m about 10,000 pages lower than previous years according to Goodreads. Ah well! That’s life!
The longest book I read this year was, unsurprisingly, Les Miserables, which I reread over the summer. (I would by far recommend the Donoghue translation over the Hapgood which I read first time already.) Les Mis was also the most popular book I read, and Attis by Tom Holland the least popular at 16 other Goodreads ratings.
It was so difficult for me to pick these! I realised that I’ve actually read SO MANY good books this year, oh my goodness.
I honestly can’t believe I read Autoboyography by Christina Lauren in 2018 because it feels like an absolute AGE ago. This book just really took me in and pulled at my emotions. The Weight of Feathers by Anna-Marie McLemore was another book that got me extremely invested, and like all her other books I adored it. I can’t believe I haven’t picked up her newest yet! I was so excited to read I Was Born For This and it didn’t disappoint, bringing me a whole new set of characters to love. I loved Starfish by Akemi Dawn Bowman so much and I’m incredibly excited to read more of her work (I also loved her second book Summer Bird Blue! I just had too many books already!) I also devoured A Very Large Expanse of Sea by Tahereh Mafi and WOAH. Also, the cover is so pretty oh my goodness.
My second lot starts with the Hawkeye comics, which I’ve reread about 4 times since I first picked them up and continue to absolutely delight me. The art is just SO GOOD and I love Kate and Clint SO MUCH. Far From the Tree by Robin Benway absolutely blew me away with the characterisation and story (and also can we just appreciate a beautiful cover). I very recently finished Run, Riot by Nikesh Shukla and it was so gripping and powerful. A Thousand Perfect Notes by CG Drews was very different but also very absorbing; it felt like a book that spoke to my childhood self but also one that current me loves a lot. . Finally, We Are Okay by Nina LaCour was a nuanced and beautifully written book that really got me feeling those emotions.
The Summer of Jordi Perez and the Best Burger in Los Angeles by Amy Spalding is an EXTREMELY cute and excellent f/f rom-com and I adored it. Noteworthy by Riley Ridgate is about cross-dressing and accapella which is an extremely rad combination. Long Macchiatos and Monsters by Alison Evans is a short queer novella that I loved very much and I have reread because I sometimes I just gotta read a happy trans story to get by. I’m putting Attis by Tom Holland here more for the experience than to actually recommend it, because it was so difficult to find that I ended up going to the British library to read it? But it was VERY RAD and surreal. I also feel like it represents the fact that recently I have got…very into Classics I guess? Finally, Indigo Donut is a beautifully written story about belonging, family and growing up, set in London, from the wonderful Patrice Lawrence.
There are so many books that I’m excited to read in 2019 — but I shall leave that for another post!
have you read any of these books? what were your favourite books of 2018? anticipated reads for 2019?
Image description: The text ‘2018 year in review’ over a firework.
We’ve almost made it through 2018! Hurrah! Let’s DO THIS THING. This year feels like it’s been one of the longest years of my life. The other day I genuinely thought that something I did over summer happened in February, so I guess it’s like 2 years have passed instead of 1? Like, what even. Anyway, I’m here with a good old yearly recap post, because I do like to be able to have this as a point of reference and it’s fun to see everything I’ve done over this year. (If I can even remember them.)
Looking back at 2018
Firstly, let’s recap my 2018 goals. Doing things with love? I mean, KIND OF. I do think that I’ve spent more time on friendships and on making new friends which is great! And I’ve also met some wonderful internet friends in real life! (This ties in with my other goal about meeting friends.) I’m getting better at looking critically at the things I love but I definitely have a long way to go with that process.
Caring for myself… Well, GCSEs sucked a LOT, I have to say. That whole experience and the culture of public examinations is still negatively affecting my mental health now. The first half of the year was really difficult for that reason and I haven’t always been amazing at taking care of myself, but part of that includes letting myself off for that, too? I’ve literally tried to block out all of that because it was just grim, tbh.
However, I can say with certainty that I have enjoyed so much amazing art this year! From excellent books to theatre to new TV shows I’ve started… it’s been a great one. A big part of this has been helping out with the sixth form musical at my school, where I worked as the sound operator. I was so proud of that production, and although it was stressful, I had an amazing time and I know that it’ll stay with me forever.
I have also for sure experienced new things: I got my first job! I travelled to South America with Guides! I went to prom! I did make it through my first public exams! I started sixth form! I got my nose pierced! I DMed for the first time!
I want to expand on starting sixth form because Year 12 has been FULL. ON. I’m studying Maths, Spanish, History & Latin and I’m really glad that I picked those subjects. (Especially Latin because I’m maybe enjoying it the most and it was a last minute switch from Chemistry.)
I blogged much less in the second half of this year. My stats are NOT thanking me, lol, but sometimes that’s the way life goes. I do have a whole bunch of post ideas so I REALLY hope I can get some more posts up.
One thing that I actually was good at keeping up was my bullet journal. I’m so glad I put in pictures of what I was up to from throughout the year because it was really nice to remind me when I looked through.
Also, I took my last ever clarinet exam which was kind of trash but THANK GOD IT’S OVER. Now I just have to spend another 6 months re-learning to love the clarinet after that deeply stressful experience, I guess.
Looking ahead to 2019
I’m going to turn 18!! WHAT! I’m just going to make that its own bullet point in itself because I don’t feel like I’m ready to be a legal adult at all.
I want to do some preparation for my future: learning to drive, improving at cooking, maybe applying for uni/deciding what I’m going to do keeping on with my job.
More blogging! I miss it a lot! I’d like to blog at least once a month.
In addition to blogging, I want to continue with theatre tech, because that was really fun and fulfilling this year. In summer I’m going to be helping on a production at the Edinburgh Fringe which I’m super excited about! I hope to make the most of that experience!
Again, I want to better take care of myself. Some concrete ways I’m going to do this are making sure I exercise, getting back into meditation, keeping a regular sleeping schedule and allowing myself to sometimes just hand in work that’s good enough, if not perfect.
I want to use my time on the internet and my phone in better ways. Spending a lot of time mindlessly scrolling social media has been REALLY bad for my brain. Instead, I want to spend more time interacting with people and building relationships.
I would like to come out as non-binary to more people? Maybe? And also to just tell people when they misgender me because people still do that a lot but I feel awkward correcting them (even though it’s not my mistake). Also, to just not read the transphobic articles that cross my path because they do not exactly help.
I’d like to listen to more new music, since I love finding new bops and I didn’t get that much opportunity to do so in 2018.
I’ll probably think of something really good after I’ve posted this but, ah well. That’s how it goes. I hope you enjoyed this focus on my personal goals.
how was your 2018? do you have any goals or resolutions for 2019?
‘WHAT IS THIS?’ I hear you say. ‘An actual blog post????’ To which I say: yes, I think so? Today I thought I would talk about comics! Over the last year or so I’ve gotten more and more into tradition comics but I realised that I haven’t actually written much about them. (You can also check out the rest of my comics series where I recommend some other comics.)
Anyway. Despite my love of webcomics, for a long time I found it very difficult to actually enjoy traditional comics. (Not only superhero but just like, traditionally published comics in general.) But now I derive a great deal of joy from them and I want to share it with you! So here I am!
Firstly: how does one read comics? Frankly, I’m not sure how much help I can be here, since almost every comic I’ve read comes from my local library. I am so thankful that my local library is free, and I am able to read the well-stocked collection of trade paperbacks, which I recognise is not something that’s available to everyone. If you are able to use your local library, then I really recommend you check out what they have. Otherwise, you can buy trade paperbacks which come in volumes, subscribe to issues (I’ve only bought like 1 issue of comics and honestly that’s a hidden world to me) or some companies have ways to read comics online like Marvel Unlimited.
Also, I want to acknowledge that both comics and webcomics are not very inaccessible in their current form for blind, visually impaired and other disabled readers. Although there are a few scripts out there, for example on the Comic Book Script Archive, and fan transcriptions (which I have here linked to if possible) these are not common. Thanks to this post by Michael Shifrin for some information on that. Additionally, Comics Empower previously sold audio comics but according to their twitter it’s no longer running. Although comics companies do sell digital copies they don’t provide any kind of transcriptions, scripts or audio comics which is extremely frustrating.
But, yeah, I personally get most of my comics out from the library. The comics section always seemed intimidating for me, so I’ve found it useful to research at least one thing I want to get out before searching for it.
Maybe this is a weird thing to say but…I kind of feel like I had to adopt a new attitude when reading comics. It’s a very odd place in which characters appear in different universes and are constantly reincarnated into new adventures. Sometimes I’ll be reading two different series about the same character and it’s WILD. I can definitely see myself getting annoyed at this inconsistency and lack of understanding but I just like…accept it and move on. I find that treating it like fanfiction helps a lot. I find it difficult to articulate but I just get a very strong fic energy from all the different universes and characters and things that are similar but not quite similar; like fic, a bunch of the comics I’ve read just tend to blur into one haha. I’m sure there’s some more interesting stuff to get into, but there we go.
So where should you start? Well, I read a couple of comics at the start but didn’t enjoy them loads so didn’t take too much of an interest. But once I found some I loved it was like ‘OHHH so now I get why people like this’. Anyway, what I’m trying to say is there are a lot of different comics and genres out there (even within the ‘superhero genre’).
The comics that I’ve most enjoyed have been recommendations from people I know; once I can tell we have a similar taste I can go and find some others! I’m just, like, going to share comics I enjoy the most now, depending on other things you like. (I have been toooo far away from blogging for this)
This series is popular for a reason! It follows Ms Marvel AKA Kamala Khan, a Pakistani teenager in New Jersey. There are so many characters to love (not in the least Kamala herself! She starts off as a superhero fan which is such a cool angle) and it’s rad to see a more diverse cast in a superhero comic. Plus, it ties in with Civil War II and actually helped me to, like, actually understand that whole storyline.
Patsy Walker AKA Hellcat!
I have 100% talked about this series before but I LOVE IT SO MUCH. It’s super cute and queer! I enjoy character development and interaction more than a billion fight scenes and a complex plot and this is just…SO GOOD for that. The art is super wonderful and I adore the characters. I am endlessly disappointed that this was cancelled after 17 issues, to be honest. (you may sense a theme here because a lot of comics I enjoy stop after only a few volumes or get cancelled…)
I confess, I still haven’t read the first incarnation of Young Avengers. (Sorry. If it’s not in the library I probably won’t get round to reading it for AGES and that’s just life.) This was maybe the first superhero comic I loved? Again, I adore all the characters, and it’s queer!! It has America Chavez!!! (Among many other rad people including Loki.) It really got me hooked to figure out what happens next – but alas, once again it is only three issues. Transcriptions by Auden Granger of the first 7 volumes can be found for free on Google Drive here, along with some transcriptions of Daredevil, Ouran High School Host Club and Runaways (2003).
I LOVE HAWKEYE SO MUCH. It’s one of my favourite series I’ve ever read! Hawkeye is an actual ‘mainstream’ superhero series I like a lot, which I was surprised by. Again, it deals more with Clint Barton’s personal life than it does his official superhero one (though there’s still action in here) which, again, I prefer. This Hawkeye is a human disaster and I love him so much. Also, the art is actually INCREDIBLE. I can’t even. Bonus: Kate Bishop’s solo Hawkeye series is also pretty rad if you want to read more about her. (She’s a Young Avenger too.)
All my suggestions so far have been Marvel, since I’m not that familiar with the DC Universe, but I love this one! Thank you Michelle @ The Writing Hufflepuff for recommending it to me. It’s World War II but in a world with no male superheroes, just a diverse group of ladies being rad and IT GIVES ME LIFE.
If you’re looking for non-superhero comics, I can recommend Saga and Lumberjanes. I’ve also read part of The Wicked and the Divine which was an interesting concept but kind of got me down, so. If it seems like something you’d be interested in then do check it out.
Series I am looking to read more of are: The Unbeatable Squirrel Girl (because they never have the 2nd volume in the library and I am SAD), Spider-Gwen, Black Panther, and Iceman, in addition to MANY others.
Sadly I can’t list every single one of the comics I’ve enjoyed in one post! But I hope you enjoyed this, and please do let me know if you have any tips or recommendations. Also, I hope to be putting up a few more posts over the holiday period so look out for those. 🙂
Hello again! It’s been a while since my last post so I thought I’d update you all on what’s going on with my blog and life and all that.
First of all: Twist in the Taile turned 5! That’s right, I started my blog 5 years ago this month. CAN YOU BELIEVE IT?? Me neither: I always have to go back to my very first post to check that, yes, I was actually that young when I started it. I haven’t got my act together to do a giveaway right at this point (more on that later) but I’m thinking about perhaps doing a belated one. We shall see.
Anyway, the last year has been somewhat turbulent for Twist in the Taile as I took a couple of breaks, mainly due to schoolwork. I’m so grateful for all of you who continue to read my posts and brighten my day with your thoughts. Thank you ❤
Secondly: what’s happening with Sixth Form? Essentially, I’m very busy this term, and although I do have many ideas for posts I don’t really have the mental energy to do homework AND music practice AND my extracurricular commitments whilst not having a breakdown. So, there will probably be less posts. (I’m slightly wincing as I look at the dramatic drop in my stats over the last 2 months and think about the future. OH WELL.)
I’m enjoying Year 12 so far – I especially like that the classes are generally a bit smaller, teachers are more relaxed, I have free periods and such, although the workload is definitely more. Choosing clothes every day is kind of stressful but I’ve sort of ended up with a system where I wear the same trousers for the whole week and just swap the shirt because that’s easier. We have a ‘formal dress code’ which is like…interesting… I’d like to write another post on picking clothes because I find it kind of hard to both wear clothes I feel comfortable in whilst sticking to the expectations of formalwear which are kind of gendered but, eh.
Let me update you on how my subjects are going! I’m taking History, Maths, Spanish and Latin (at my school most people are advised to start with 4 and then drop 1; I don’t think they’ve quite got used to the linear system yet).
History is really interesting and I’m enjoying the Stuarts a lot more than I thought I might?? My GCSE was all based around the 20th century so it’s nice to do something else. Both my teachers are great as well (I have multiple teachers for every subject who teach different topics) although I am slightly terrified of them and my recent essay was…interesting. Also, there’s a lot of note-taking homework, which I’m still getting used to.
I’m so glad I took Maths since this time last year I was completely sure I wouldn’t be doing A-Level (lol) since it’s such a nice contrast to my other subjects. I mean, it’s also challenging but I do generally find it relaxing in comparison to, say History. I like that questions have an actual definitive answer, y’know?
I feel like Spanish has been the biggest step up from GCSE – I enjoy the subject but it does feel like suddenly we have to be a lot more fluent which is very much not me haha. There’s also been some issues with my class which makes it…interesting… I probably shouldn’t say too much about it on here though.
I’m liking Latin a lot! Again, I’m so glad I took it in the end since I was almost going to do Chemistry. Language is very fun, I’ve always found translation quite satisfying, and literature is interesting too. I even read some Extra Books so I feel like a moderately dedicated student. ALSO…the Latin verb drills website has finally come into immediate and practical use with prose composition ayy.
This half term is going to be pretty busy with my school musical that I’m helping and clarinet grade 8 in addition to schoolwork so I am essentially hoping to make it out alive?? Apologies for the lack of Monthly Mixtape; it has rather been put on hold and I feel that its future needs to be considered but that’s something I haven’t quite gotten round to.
Anyway! Please update me on what’s going on with you! I miss talking to you all. 🙂
I’ve been thinking about the past a lot this summer. I don’t know what it is, but I feel like even more than usual I’ve been reminded of memories, of how things used to be, of places I used to go. It’s very strange. And often it makes me wish that I could go back to then.
For example: it’s not that long ago, but I miss the time when I used to write a blog post every 4-5 days. I’m never going to get back to posting that often, I think. I used to actually write stuff as well. The reality is that…school seems to take up so much of my time? And actually I like spending time on it? I mean, exams really sucked, but in general I enjoy learning.
I miss all that writing. But also I’m trying to accept that nothing is going to be the same forever, and actually a lot of stuff has changed in my life. That’s allowed to happen. I’m allowed to spend time on school or music or just hanging out. I still love this blog, and I’m still excited to write posts, but I don’t want it to become a chore — I want to feel excited about the prospect of writing a post instead of just tired. I don’t want to feel guilty about not posting as often as I used to or no getting as many views/followers/comments as I’d like. Because that’s not fun at all.
I find myself mourning friends who aren’t as close anymore and honestly, you know what — people change! I’ve changed a lot. It’s alright for my friendships to shift. I’m particularly thinking about this as I start 6th form which feels like a BIG new thing in my life; it’s the biggest change in school I’ve had since starting secondary school. IT’S SO WEIRD. I miss my old teachers and classes! But also it’s exciting.
Also, I miss when I like…didn’t think about my gender all the time, I guess. And then it makes me wonder if I’m making it all up and gaslighting myself into thinking I’m not actually queer and I’m just a special snowflake. I hate feeling like that; I usually then go and remind myself of all the other LGBTQ+ out there who are real and do exist.
I DON’T KNOW. I feel like this is quite an uncharacteristic and rambly post, for me. I haven’t written one like this in a while and it’s quite cathartic. I don’t understand what this weird remembering thing is. I get it much more vividly from hearing or tasting things — playing my old clarinet pieces kind of feels like transporting myself back into the past. Maybe because clarinet is separate from everything else. The music just goes into a different part of my brain. Aaah you see what I mean?!?
Anyway, I don’t really have a conclusion planned out, except to say that: things change! It’s scary but I’m trying to accept it! I don’t want to pressure myself to blog! And I hope you have a wonderful day. 🙂
Hello, it’s Monthly Mixtape time again! Sorry for the delay in both this being published and, well, really any posts being published. Life and starting sixth form have been keeping me busy. From now on, you should probably expect less frequent posting since I don’t think I’ll be able to do as much blogger as I used to. (Though you can maybe expect a forthcoming post on that??)
Anyways! Monthly Mixtape is a music feature created by Eve @ Twist in the Taile (that’s me) and Evi @ Adventuring Through Pages. Here’s how it works: each month, we give you a one-word prompt, and you make a playlist. We welcome you to interpret the prompt however you want and with whatever music you’re into.
Please link back to the original Monthly Mixtape prompt whenever you make a playlist. We welcome you to use the title image for your blog post if you wish. You can create a playlist in response to any of the prompts going forward, not just the current months, but you won’t be able to add your link once the new prompt is up. The next Monthly Mixtape will be (hopefully) up in the first week of October! And this month’s prompt is…
duende, noun:: the power to attract through personal magnetism and charm
Duende is a Spanish word, and you can read more about its origins and how it’s difficult to strictly define in English here and here! I haven’t managed to make a playlist yet for this month, but I decided that if I tried to do that then this probably wouldn’t be posted until next week, so HERE WE ARE. Please forgive me.
how’s it going for you today? are you back to education (like me)? let’s have a chat!
Over the summer holidays I didn’t have much opportunity to get stressed about results day and I am SO GLAD. I’d been away on a trip with Guides for most of August which took up all of my brain space! Obviously it was still lurking in the back of my thoughts, but I didn’t start thinking about it loads until I came back and started lying in bed at night stressing that I’d failed everything. Fun times, am I right?
Discussing my worries with friends made me feel less alone since I realised that actually everyone was freaking out, not just me. (Though I was still kind of stressed.) On the morning of results day I stayed in bed for ages hoping to distract myself with books and podcasts. I even ended up going in later than I’d planned haha despite waking up early.
ANYWAY. I’m, like, still really in shock at my results?? I did way better than I was expecting? I’d convinced myself that I’d failed additional maths and I actually got an A which I DO NOT UNDERSTAND AT ALL because the exam was ABSOLUTE HELL. (The answer is that the grade boundaries were extremely low.)
I’d prefer not to share all of my grades publicly on here, but since this blog series has covered a lot of my GCSEs I felt that I should do some kind of conclusion. So I just wanted to say that I’m really happy with my results! I got the top grades in the subjects I’m taking at A-Level which is awesome since a) obviously now I’m allowed to take those subjects next year and b) it makes me feel more confident that I actually have a chance at A-Levels. I’m planning to take Maths, Spanish, History & Latin, and I’m very excited?! Hopefully sixth form won’t be too scary haha.
It feels so strangely anti-climatic to see so many hours of schoolwork boiled down to one piece of paper… It still hasn’t quite sunk in for me that it’s, you know, over. But GCSEs have been hanging over me for so long, and it’s such a relief to finally close this chapter. These new exams have been confusing and stressful but WE MADE IT THROUGH, FOLKS.
If you were also getting results yesterday, I hope you’re happy and even if not I send you internet hugs. It might not feel like it sometimes (and this is certainly something that I need to remind myself of) but exam results are NOT the be all and end all, and you’re still awesome no matter what. ❤
As I said, I’m starting sixth form this year which is all very new for me, so I’m sure you’ll be seeing more posts in this series. A-Levels! Way less subjects! I don’t have to wear uniform anymore! And also lots of other stuff that I’m sure I’ll discover when I get there. I can’t wait to update you all on it. 🙂