Sad Feelings and Exam Stress

Hi everyone! I hope you’re doing okay. This is just a little update post to let you know what’s going on with me, because I’ve been rather sad recently and blogging hasn’t been quite the fun activity I want it to be.

These few weeks are very weird for me because I’m in a strange liminal space between ‘normal school’ and actual exams. I used to enjoy school a lot, especially in Year 10, but currently I just feel like I’m preparing to pass an exam. And I know that’s what I’m doing, but it still frustrates me. It makes me feel like what I’m doing is pointless. Yet the same time, I feel very very stressed about getting good grades and living up to people’s (and my own) expectations of me. And then I feel stressed about stressing when I should be revising, AAAAAH. IT IS TERRIBLE.

Other things have also been contributing to me sadness like my compulsion to read transphobic articles which make me feel bad, stressing about what to do in the future, friend group politics etc. etc. Just: a lot of things are happening right now.

I don’t know, the summer weather makes me feel better. But I’ve also been crying a lot. I’m not sure where this post is going, but the most important thing I’d like to say is that I need to take some time out. I still have some blog posts lined up, but I don’t want blogging to be a chore. I need to take care of myself, and I need to let myself not do stuff — and that includes not blogging as frequently.

But I’m still around! If you’d like to talk to me then you can of course still comment on my blog or tweet me @appletaile. Like I said, I still have some posts which will be going up soon.


Introducing: Finding Our Feet

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Hellooo! Today I’m super excited to share a new project that hopefully lots of you can join in with.  (Instead of listening to my general long rambles and being bored.) (Well. I HOPE NOT. :P)

Finding Our Feet is a project by and for teens & young people. It was created by Em @ Adventures of a Lost Teen, with help from myself and Victoria @ Addlepates and Booknerds. We’re aiming to compile a short video with clips and advice from all of you guys about the struggles of growing up and finding our place. We’re hoping that through this we can find shared experiences and give some support around the teen blogging community. 🙂 Being a young person is never easy, but *cue music* WE’RE ALL IN THIS TOGETHER.

And this is where the feet part comes in! We’re asking you to send in a clip of you walking anywhere you like to accompany the message you submit. I know a lot of people would prefer not to show their face, and it fitted reall well with the theme of ‘finding our feet’. (Literally. This is all a massive pun and I LOVE IT.)

how exactly can you get involved?

Okay, so as I mentioned if you’d like to participate we’re asking for two pieces of information from you:

  1. A 10-20 second clip of you walking as an email attachment
  2. A short written message of advice or support for other young people or an inspirational quote

And then send both of these to by 31st July.

a couple of tips

  • You can film your clip on whatever you like — a phone is perfectly fine! — as long as it’s got your feet walking. (You can check out an example clip that Em made below.) We’re hoping to get as much variety as possible so feel free to get creative with where you’re walking! (As long as it’s not dangerous. SAFETY FIRST,PEOPLES.)
  • Regarding the length of your clip: as I said, it can be anywhere between 10 and 20 seconds, but remember that your message must be read out over your clip. So if you’ve got a slightly longer message then go for a longer clip! We can always cut clips down, but trying to make the words fit in a short time period is a lot more difficult.
  • Send your video in an attachment, but send your message written! We’ve decided to have a few readers saying the messages rather than asking you to send in audio clips yourself. 🙂
  • If you’re sending in a quote and it’s been said by a particular person, it would be wonderful if you could include a source.

Here’s Em’s wonderful example!

Message: “never let other people tell you your dreams are impossible”

Now all that’s left is for you guys to participate! Its open to all young people wherever you are, and we’re accepting clips + messages until 31st July. The final video should be up sometime in August. We hope to see as many submissions as possible! 😀

And if you have any questions then feel free to comment, check out Em’s introductory post or contact us on Twitter (@appletaile, @Addlepates or @em_is_lost99). 🙂

March Favourites!

I’m pretty sure I say this every single time, but I CAN’T BELIEVE IT’S APRIL ALREADY AAH! (I’m counting down the days to ACOTAR, guys. I really am.)

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1. Twitter This was the month I got Twitter. (And also revived my Tumblr, if you’re interested.) I think it’s probably my favourite social networking site so far of the ones I’ve tried – I’m definitely going to be trying to keep up with it. (Maybe that’s not a good thing, though…?)

2. The Bone Season & The Mime Order by Samantha Shannon LONDON. CRIME. MAGIC. MORE FUN THINGS. Yeah, both of these were fun. They had their flaws, but I still devoured them – they kind of reminded me of a more British and magical Red Rising?

3. Half Wild by Sally Green One word: GABRIEL. Annalise is a boring and flat character, okay? It kind of sucked that a lot of the book was about finding her. But hopefully that’ll change. It was still a very pleasing read.

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4. The Tale of the Princess Kaguya I am a crazy Studio Ghibli fan, okay? The. Best. Princess Kaguya was no exception, with SUCH A BEAUTIFUL (but also kind of sad) STORY and CHARACTERS and FREAKING LOOK AT THE ART

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5. Spotify I love 8tracks, I really do, but sometimes it’s nice to be able to see the songs you’re playing and shuffle them and the like. (It probably helps that against all the odds, Spotify has an app for my miserably lonely phone.)

6. Princess Princess by Strangely Katie This webcomic was recommended to me by the wonderful Evie @ Where Books Never End and OH MY GOSH IT WAS ADORABLE. It’s like the cutest kick-ass princess story ever, drawn in the Hello Kitty colour palette. GO READ IT NOW OKAY.

7. More Than This by Patrick Ness I first read this around a year ago and had mixed feelings. I re-read it for Carnegie Shadowing and WOWOWOWOWOWOWOWOW OKAY. The IDEAS. The WRITING. (Third person present tense. Frikkin’ hard to pull off, I’m telling you.) Also, I felt like it was a little bit similar to my current WIP so I spent a lot of time observing how Seth basically interacted with like 5 characters throughout the entire book. Yeah, so I liked it.

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Stuff from around the internet

My most viewed posts this month were Poetry: Lady of the Lake, I’m Scared of Being a Teenager and My Hero Monday: Nimona.
I wrote a disgustingly fluffy Simon Snow fanfiction instead of planning my Camp NaNo.
Books, Tea and a Onesie turned one!
Alyssa @ The Devil Orders Takeout talked about the awesomeness of print books. (And also got a site makeover!)
I joined the team for Big Book Project. Watch out for its launch on good Friday!
#VeryRealisticYA, created by John Hansen over at Teens Can Write Too went viral. (You only need to have a quick browse of the tweets to see its genius!)

Bookish things that have happened

The Paper Towns trailer was released.
The TMI TV show rumours were debunked, and it’s been announced that it will air on ABC family.
It was World Book Day!
Half Bad by Sally Green won the Waterstone’s Children’s Book Prize.
The Carnegie Medal 2015 shortlist was released.

Phew, March has been an action-packed month! Posts might become more scarce in the next month or so, as I’m taking Camp NaNoWriMo, but never fear – I’m not abandoning you! You can still always contact me on my Camp account as Taile, or tweet me on the shiny new Twitter at @appletaile.

How was your month? Have you read any of these books? Are you a Studio Ghibli fan too? 🙂