Sad Feelings and Exam Stress

Hi everyone! I hope you’re doing okay. This is just a little update post to let you know what’s going on with me, because I’ve been rather sad recently and blogging hasn’t been quite the fun activity I want it to be.

These few weeks are very weird for me because I’m in a strange liminal space between ‘normal school’ and actual exams. I used to enjoy school a lot, especially in Year 10, but currently I just feel like I’m preparing to pass an exam. And I know that’s what I’m doing, but it still frustrates me. It makes me feel like what I’m doing is pointless. Yet the same time, I feel very very stressed about getting good grades and living up to people’s (and my own) expectations of me. And then I feel stressed about stressing when I should be revising, AAAAAH. IT IS TERRIBLE.

Other things have also been contributing to me sadness like my compulsion to read transphobic articles which make me feel bad, stressing about what to do in the future, friend group politics etc. etc. Just: a lot of things are happening right now.

I don’t know, the summer weather makes me feel better. But I’ve also been crying a lot. I’m not sure where this post is going, but the most important thing I’d like to say is that I need to take some time out. I still have some blog posts lined up, but I don’t want blogging to be a chore. I need to take care of myself, and I need to let myself not do stuff — and that includes not blogging as frequently.

But I’m still around! If you’d like to talk to me then you can of course still comment on my blog or tweet me @appletaile. Like I said, I still have some posts which will be going up soon.


6 thoughts on “Sad Feelings and Exam Stress

  1. Finals are getting ready to happen at my school. They are in two weeks and because I am a graduating Senior, have the privilege of being exempt. Most likely will be able to exempt from Sociology classes.

    Western Civilization II- that final is in the first slot. Monday the 7th at 8:00 am. But stuck with the final and a test the same day. He is really like if you fail a test, you fail the test so I am stuck with taking the test I failed on the same day as my WC final. That is so annoying: I wish he didn’t have that strict rule. WC is always known to be one of the hardest classes at my school. That class focuses more on ideas than actual events and is more of an abstract class.

  2. Aww Eve *gives hug* I know exactly how you’re feeling at the moment. GCSEs are also stressing me out and this time of school just seems pointless. I think it’s really good that you’ve decided to take out time for yourself, trust me, you’ll feel better. You can always message me on Twitter whenever you want, I’ll always be there to listen 💛

  3. gosh gosh gosh this is a Very Large Mood. ❤ ❤ ❤ Always take breaks- not just online, but from friends if they're stressing you out too- if you need it, hun. We love you and will be here when you want to come back. ❤

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