“I Want To Be a Writer.”

i want to be a writer

If you look on my social media profiles and whatnot, you might spot that the word ‘writer’ usually features. I mean, technically I don’t yet have a cohesive and linear novel *coughs*Ineedtostopprocrastinating*coughs* but I like to mess around with words. Somewhere along the way I assumed the title of writer. I like it. I like to call myself a writer. General public opinion of writers seems to be that they are be mythical, sleep-deprived & manic tea and/or coffee drinkers, which suits me just fine. 😉

I don’t ever introduce myself as a writer. I don’t even really discuss it in face-to-face conversations, like, at all. I see people who have brainstormed awesome things with their writer friends and it makes me wonder if I’m missing something. Am I missing something? I guess I don’t know.

I mean, I wouldn’t introduce myself as a writer, because most teenagers don’t announce themselves as their profession when you meet them. (In my experience. Maybe in the far reaches of not-my-one-school this is a thing??) But back in my wee days of primary school, ‘What do you want to be when you grow up?’ was a pretty standard playground question. I said wanted to be a cat breeder. I think that says it all, really. 😛

Jokes aside, I also often said that I wanted to be a writer. Whilst it was true that I didn’t have a cohesive, linear novel then either – um, I really doubt I wrote anything actually longer than about a thousand words – I feel like it was more okay to say that then. I was far more confident about professing my love of books and stardust and magical worlds. Adults probably shared knowing looks but, whatever; I either didn’t notice or didn’t care.

Ah, the days of that. Now career choices are actually looming and I’m terrified. I don’t know what I want to do. I like writing – enough to call myself a writer – but I know some people don’t think it’s a proper goal. That it’s too difficult.

I know writing is super hard! I get this! I am the one doing it, after all. I understand that getting published is difficult and being successful even more so. I am 100% okay with writing on the side of something else, in the cracks. I do that right now. (Well, I at least try to.) I’m a bit of a Cath; I could see myself just spending uni writing and hoping I can write for another for years after that. Or not. Writing is pretty solitary. Mystical. Like a lone unicorn. BEHOLD MY MANE

Someday I’m going to write a book, and some people will read it. That’s the one thing in my future that I’m sure I’m going to make happen. What I love about it is that it’s something you can work at; I don’t know, I feel like a lot of opinions are based on whether you have ‘talent’ at, like, 14. Maybe there’s a certain amount of inner love for words, and to me, when I read blogs, it reads as if some people just have a natural eloquence, but you can improve. As long as you love writing, you can write. You aren’t – pardon the pun, hehe – written off just because you aren’t good at waffling about a literary device.

So I don’t say that I’m a writer very much in face-to-face conversation anymore. I’m not very good at navigating rocky conversational waters. I tell people that I have no plans for the future – which is mostly accurate – and then we move on. I breathe a sigh of relief. (That is, until the subject returns 24 hours later.)

10 thoughts on ““I Want To Be a Writer.”

  1. If you write, then you’re a writer. You don’t need to be published to be a writer.
    As for not knowing what to do for a career, find another passion. You can work towards both. That way, if writing doesn’t pay the bills you will have something else you love and still write on the side.

  2. If you write, then you are a writer. Imo it’s as simple as that – even if it’s not your full time profession. You can be an accountant and a writer. You can be a doctor and a writer. You can be an electrician and a writer.

    With regards to what you want to do, it’s a myth that adults/people know what they want to do with their life. Basically no one does. I have a degree and a job and I still have no clue. I think finding something you enjoy doing at the time you are doing it is the most important thing, no matter what that is. And it’s important to remember that if you stop liking it or something doesn’t work out then you don’t have to do it any more. You are allowed to change your mind. That’s fine. You are allowed more than one career. Also fine. So if you start out doing one thing and then decide you want to be a writer instead you can go do that – it doesn’t just run out because you’ve started something else. In the same way, you can try being a full time writer and then go do something else instead. The important thing is finding something you enjoy for the period of time you are doing it, even if a year or two down the line you change your mind. I think that’s particularly important when it comes to choosing A Levels and Degrees. Unless you absolutely have to have particular qualifications to do a job (ie: Doctor, lawyer etc.) then just choose something and somewhere that you love. If you’re enjoying it you will probably do better and ultimately having a good degree in anything is better than failing a degree you only did because you thought it would look good or someone told you to. What they fail to tell you at school is that actually, the degree/a levels you do don’t actually define the rest of your life. I have a job that doesn’t really relate to my degree at all. If you find out later on you need more qualifications you can go and get them then. Always do what makes you happy and while it might seem terrifying now, it will all be fine.

    Sorry that ended up being really long! I just wanted to throw my two cents in – you don’t need to panic about life decisions! It will all be okay 🙂

    1. Yeah, I’m kinda feeling better about writing & labels and stuff after writing this post!

      Thank you so much for your advice – argh, sometimes I do get freaked out about the future and it’s great to hear other experiences. It sometimes feels like everyone has a plan, but it’s good to be reminded that qualifications aren’t everything. Hopefully I will just choose stuff I like and then end up…doing something I like? I guess I’m planning to continue reading and writing whatever, so it’s nice to hold on to that.

      No worries! The new school years is slightly daunting me, so I appreciate your advice so much. 🙂

  3. Writing is really one of those things that is very hard. It’s difficult to get published and even more so to be considered successful, like you said. I honestly think as long as you write you are a writer. I also think that if it’s what you want to do and if it takes five years and only on person reads and loves your book when it’s published you’re still sucessful. I want to be a writer, I want a book published and sold in shops with my name on it. I want to go to book festivals and talk about things I’ve written and have people ask me questions but if that never happens and it’s only my friends that read my work I’ll be okay with that too. If one person reads my book and loves it I’d still consider that pretty sucessful.

    When I was younger I always said I was going to be a teacher but I never really knew why. I wanted to study education and university only because all my friends were heading off to university and I felt I had to as well. Lucky enough I realised before I applied that I shouldn’t do something because everyone else is doing it. A year later I got into university to study psychology, something I love way more than I’d ever love if I was studying anything else. The point is that you need to do whatever makes you happy. Although it might same scary that everyone else knows what they want to do and you’re not 100% sure that’s okay – it will all work out. Sorry this is really long.:)

  4. I really think this is an excellent blog post, as often I find myself asking myself if the act of writing a novel (albeit a bad one that I do not intend on letting anywhere near another human being) makes me a writer, even if I’m young. This goes deep and really makes you think, at what point are you entitled to adopting the title of ‘writer’?

    1. Thanks, I’m glad you enjoyed it. I think internally I do consider myself a writer, ’cause, hey, I write, but mostly I’m not sure of I should announce that in front of other people. It depends on how confident you are with your writing, maybe?

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